So I haven’t been really forthcoming with the details around this and I’m not sure why. More than likely it’s my own inability to ask for help, or my pride, or simple the shame I’ve had to deal with from other people let alone on the internet.
I won’t go into details or points fingers, but I basically ran from a bad situation to a place I’d never been too and found that I could no longer stay at the place I was staying at. I ended up coming very close to committing suicide, and have since been put into a partial hospitalization program due to the fact that there are no open beds in the inpatient program. It’s a VERY good program, though, and I feel like I’m making strides in becoming healthier. Meanwhile, I went to stay at the homeless shelter, but the people there, as well as the people running the shelter, were not very conducive to the treatment I was receiving. They would withhold my meds from me and yell at me for things my roommates did when I wasn’t even there. I found myself constantly stressed and anxious, while my roommates were not the nicest people either.
So I left. Luckily, I have a car, and as such, I have been living out of there. But given this is Minnesota, it hasn’t been exactly warm at night. As such, I need to run the engine during the night on occasion to warm up the car, as well as drive to clinic through the week.
The county has been less than forthcoming with any kind of assistance, and I’ve used up what I could of charities. I sold the last bit of my belongings for a bit of money yesterday so I could run my car last night, have some supper, and afford a cup of tea today to help with my sinuses and not feel like a total mooch for sitting in Barnes and Nobles all day because its too cold outside and free wifi. Short of selling my netbook, which I think I would go insane without, I’m utterly and completely broke.
So I come to you, tumblr, because I have nowhere else to ask. I’m willing to do some doodles or pictures for donations, and since I have all day to just sit here with my thumb up my ass, I can probably get them to you today. My paypal is firstname.lastname@example.org as is my e-mail. You can feel free to send me any sort of communication, through there or here, to negotiate or something. Again, to anyone who helps, you have my utmost thanks and gratitude.